Have woken up insanely happy :-)
The sun is shining, Matthew loves me in spite of everything, and it is No Longer Last Week. CULES is vaguely on track, Campus are no longer pub collecting, and I have a lovely sense of how good it is to be alive.
I'm terribly selfish. I know that if I loose my temper and scream and cry over all the stuff that I've been bottling up I will feel so much better about it the next day. I'm one of those people who will have a screaming row with my mother down the phone and call her back 30 minutes later to apologise and gossip about the kids for an hour. Or even just ranting about stuff to bounce opinions about what I should do off people. There's nothing I find harder to cope with than something I can't talk about that's upset me. However, taking it all out on Matthew isn't really the answer, because everything goes to heart, and as I get more and more hurtful out of anger it digs in and festers for the next month, (and causes me more problems than just being able to cry about it all solves)
But hey, this is just a worry at the back of my mind, that I can easilly ignore on this bright sunny day...