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May 27th, 2003
08:03 am


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emperor was wonderful as always, and spent far too much of the small hours running up his phone bill talking me out of the "It hurts, I can't sleep" state I'd worked myself into until eventually (after Even More Painkillers) I did drift off to sleep. And before he makes his own <pred> dig at himself, no, that's not because he's so boring that stupor beat the pain... He's just too loving for his own good, and if he's not careful I'll just take him forgranted and end up using him accidently like I have everyone else. So, no, it's not insomnia he's suffering from, it's "Strange girls crying on me over the phone for an hour itus", which is different.

Saw theinquisitor last night. Wanted to talk about stuff. So talked about stuff with Tom. Because I always talk about everything with Tom, right? Gah, I should be more sensitive and at least *attempt* to connect my brain somewhere between my thoughts and my mouth. I can't just expect it to snap back to how it was like nothing ever happened. Except Tom keeps insisting he doesn't mind, and that's what he wants, and he still likes me... I worry about him. Sometimes it seems like he's so well self protected against being hurt nothing really hurts him. But maybe that's not a bad thing... except it makes him harder to read, he can really care and be serious about stuff (well, as much as he can about anything) and still come across as frustratingly glib and uncommitted. And then I'm sure there's stuff that hurts him that he just manages to shrug off as though it didn't matter, and so gets hurt again.... I wouldn't want to live that way. But then hey, I just bounce from melodrama to melodrama, right?

Tired today, unsurprisingly, pain seems to have faded to barely a dull ache (more an uncomfortable stuffy feeling.) General health seems much better, body aching less, sore throat better, if not gone, and head, although stuffy, not full of stabbing pain. Now I ought to go to the college nurse, a) because I'm worried about this strange ear thing, and b) because I want a seconded excuse when I go into my exams perfectly healthy and fail due to having done no revision at all the week before. Part three? What idle dreams, what ivory towers, what fading castles in the sky were those...

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Date:May 26th, 2003 11:35 pm (UTC)
So, no, it's not insomnia he's suffering from, it's "Strange girls crying on me over the phone for an hour itus", which is different.

Well, it certainly started out as insomnia - I can vouch for that.
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Date:May 26th, 2003 11:44 pm (UTC)
Yeah, but I'm sure I didn't help >guilt<
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Date:May 26th, 2003 11:45 pm (UTC)
Pah. 3 years into the maths tripos and I can't remember which is greater than and which is less than. <Sigh>
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Date:May 27th, 2003 12:52 am (UTC)
*hugs you tight*
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Date:May 27th, 2003 02:41 am (UTC)
Just because I'm even better at not showing it, doesn't mean I'm not pretty good at not being hurt (or, at any rate, bouncing back).

I mean what I say, and say what I mean, usually. I certainly did then.

Oh yes, I wouldn't want to live, bouncing from melodrama to melodrama... Each to their own...
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