LSM on Sunday was beautiful. I was blessed, in that many of my friends had made the effort to come and support me. I have found my deeper faith by watching those I love live their godly lives around me; it was wonderful to have them with me at my confirmation. Father Andrew has always emphasised the event as being for the whole congregation, "we" instead of "I", but the overwhelming feeling I had of being part of the whole body of christ, as people from all denominations gathered to share in my joy, was very special. And that meant a lot to me, coming as I do from so many backgrounds, having walked so many roads towards God; it was good to be reminded I was coming home to the Church in all its fullness, not just to Little St Mary's.
And being so supported and loved, I could face the service just as I was. Can I still feel the oil of chrism, always invisible, traced on the surface of my skin? Can I still hear the strong refrains of our praises to the everlasting king raised to heaven? Can I return to that place in my heart, where the gentle sounds of "just as I am" took me, leaving me awestruck that by grace I am welcomed home and forgiven? Can I still taste the tang of communion wine on my lips, a meeting with the divine, with Wisdom, Sacrifice, Community and Love? Can I find again that Easter joy filling my soul as clear as fresh spring water, or the fall of crystal tears?
See, I get confirmed, and still all I have is endless questions *grin*